I was reading collin's park blog on the topic "Envy" (what he shared on last week pemuda session) and then i stumble upon this post/quote:
From Merton's Witness to Freedom:
[T]here is one basic idea that should be kept in mind in all the changes we make in life, whether of career or anything else. We should decide not in view of better pay, higher rank, "getting ahead," but in view of becoming more real, entering more authentically into direct contact with life, living more as a free and mature human person, able to give myself more to others, able to understand myself and the world better.
pp. 254-255, quoted in
Echoing Silence, Thomas Merton on the Vocation of Writing
edited by Robert Inchausti
I'm scared of changes that i know will be coming very very soon :(
i'm going back indo this time no more delaying, escaping nor denying
the harder road it is :'(
no financial stability
no definite future, except for heaven of course :'}
and tons and tons of hardships and struggles coming ahead
and questions like:
can i be a blessing there?
can i continue growing there?
can i finish strong?
on the other note, all these uncertainties teach me:
to be more dependent on Him as my provider and comfort, as my friend and God.
"I can't do this alone,
God I need you to hold on to me"
-Josh Wilson (Savior)
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Beloved and Blessed
Updates updates :)
What is up in February:
1. WCC
Always enriched and encouraged after each WCC.
The theme this year was beloved; an awesome revelation and truth that we are so loved by God. a lot of time i "forgot" that i am His beloved. It's a really good reminder and be able to hear testimonies from people about their journey with God make me wanna have one as well! maybe one day i can be the one giving testimony hehehehe... or praying. There was this girl who introduces/prays before session/testimony and i was just so blessed by her prayer. And this time... i was quite sober hehehe i didn't cry... as much! :p
2. CANADA
Wohooooo!!! i didn't think i was going to have time for this trip. Last year a few people i know went there and i wasn't able to join them... i thought i will have to skip Canada before indo :( because i don't know when/ if my parents can come to pick me up before indo... but Thank God truly deeply for such an opportunity and a blessed trip that i was able to go :) God was gracious that He gave us an added bonus by giving us an excellent weather. You see, before we went, we kept on checking the weather and it was a wet days... we only get 1 sunny day. But, in reality we got nice weather for all days and 1 wet day. :))) and my highlight is the snow. All my life i didn't know that snow has shapes... they're gorgeous! snowflakes... our God is quite an artist i must say, they're(the snowflakes) shaped so beautifully <3 i'm in LOVE! and in awe <3
*blushed*
What is up in February:
1. WCC
Always enriched and encouraged after each WCC.
The theme this year was beloved; an awesome revelation and truth that we are so loved by God. a lot of time i "forgot" that i am His beloved. It's a really good reminder and be able to hear testimonies from people about their journey with God make me wanna have one as well! maybe one day i can be the one giving testimony hehehehe... or praying. There was this girl who introduces/prays before session/testimony and i was just so blessed by her prayer. And this time... i was quite sober hehehe i didn't cry... as much! :p
2. CANADA
Wohooooo!!! i didn't think i was going to have time for this trip. Last year a few people i know went there and i wasn't able to join them... i thought i will have to skip Canada before indo :( because i don't know when/ if my parents can come to pick me up before indo... but Thank God truly deeply for such an opportunity and a blessed trip that i was able to go :) God was gracious that He gave us an added bonus by giving us an excellent weather. You see, before we went, we kept on checking the weather and it was a wet days... we only get 1 sunny day. But, in reality we got nice weather for all days and 1 wet day. :))) and my highlight is the snow. All my life i didn't know that snow has shapes... they're gorgeous! snowflakes... our God is quite an artist i must say, they're(the snowflakes) shaped so beautifully <3 i'm in LOVE! and in awe <3
*blushed*
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Answered prayer :'}
so, we had our bible study session on tuesday (01/11/2011) -> awesome date huh?! ;) anyhow at the end of our session during prayer request, one of my friend requested a warmer weather because she hasn't been feeling very well lately + busy at work and the cold-weather isn't helping, and especially it was raining that night!
so... we prayed... :)
and God answered the next day!!! <3
the temperature went up by 9 degrees and compared to tuesday, wednesday was basking with sunshine ~@~
No prayer request is too small/too big for Him, whatever it is just turn to God!
*blushed*
so... we prayed... :)
and God answered the next day!!! <3
the temperature went up by 9 degrees and compared to tuesday, wednesday was basking with sunshine ~@~
No prayer request is too small/too big for Him, whatever it is just turn to God!
*blushed*
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Return on Investment :p
back at work on monday after the longweekend it's just such a hard thing to do :( and plus the chef is sick so there's no food at work to keep me going :'( *double sad* so on lunch i went to this nearby taco place. i would normally get this mexican drink (horchata) to go with it, i was contemplating the $3 that i have in my wallet and then i decided i'm just gonna get the free soda at work :p
after work, i was filling up gas at this place nearby my work. and as i was about half way to fill up my gas, this homeless guy approached me saying, "i mean no harm, but will you let me clean your window?"
i was thinking in my head and i said no, thank you (because i don't know how long it's going to take him to clean up my car window and i was already half way full). but then when he about to walk away, i start to feel bad... so i checked my wallet and finally asked him how much does he charge. and he said, "well is up to your heart willing to give, i'll take $1, $2 or $5" and i checked my wallet again then i said to him, "you don't have to clean my window, but i have this $3, please put it for a good use ok?! buy food and don't drink! and then he said "yes mam." and i said "God bless you" and he said "God bless you too" then he approached other cars.
and just when i finished filling up gas, the worker at the gas station start changing the price. inside my head i was thinking... nooooo!!! just when i finished, the price is going down????? T.T but it's actually the opposite... the price went up by 6 cents XD i know i know... 6 cents is nothing... but still it makes me happy :'}
and God just put this great comfort in my heart not to be afraid to give <3 which is priceless <3
*blushed*
after work, i was filling up gas at this place nearby my work. and as i was about half way to fill up my gas, this homeless guy approached me saying, "i mean no harm, but will you let me clean your window?"
i was thinking in my head and i said no, thank you (because i don't know how long it's going to take him to clean up my car window and i was already half way full). but then when he about to walk away, i start to feel bad... so i checked my wallet and finally asked him how much does he charge. and he said, "well is up to your heart willing to give, i'll take $1, $2 or $5" and i checked my wallet again then i said to him, "you don't have to clean my window, but i have this $3, please put it for a good use ok?! buy food and don't drink! and then he said "yes mam." and i said "God bless you" and he said "God bless you too" then he approached other cars.
and just when i finished filling up gas, the worker at the gas station start changing the price. inside my head i was thinking... nooooo!!! just when i finished, the price is going down????? T.T but it's actually the opposite... the price went up by 6 cents XD i know i know... 6 cents is nothing... but still it makes me happy :'}
and God just put this great comfort in my heart not to be afraid to give <3 which is priceless <3
*blushed*
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Happy :'}
another long overdue post T.T
i was planning to post this one exactly on my b'day like i did last year, but i failed to do so since i was so so busy with celebrations :p and practices and work - -"
Before i wrote this post i just peek at my post last year, if you would re-read: "grateful"
This year, God's teaching me a lot about being content and by His grace i would say this year i'm happy :'} Looking back, i know that sometimes God's command seems hard/impossible to do (like forgiveness or being content, etc) but it is really for our own good because the peace that comes after is just so rewarding.
On friday a week before my b'day, ci santi's friend: Pira was speaking about this topic and he used Phil 4. I grew up with the verse : 13 "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." i was a very pessimistic and all-time-worrier kid, i remember my mom would just repeat that verse over and over at the table during breakfast and dinner, before every exam, test, check-up or any major event that freak me out. Yup, in english! So even though i don't purposely plan to memorize it, it gets to me.
So Pira broke down the verse, it's NOT about I CAN, or DO ALL THINGS but it is about THROUGH CHRIST! and it is about the importance of knowing/understand the prior verses, which i never pay attention to - -"
"11 I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the SECRET of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want."
Now when Paul wrote the book of Philippians, he was in prison T.T and yet he showed such great faith! what is his SECRET? the secret is on verse 13 which it THROUGH CHRIST <3
A lot of admirable people i know would start a line by saying: "by God's grace, I..." and now i think i know what that means :) and everyone can say it too and start living it if you know the secret :)
i'm still learning too, and i will probably fall again and again, but i'll try to embrace the secret and knowing that i can do all thing THROUGH CHRIST who strengthens me.
i thank God for such a HAPPY b'day this year :'} along with all the added bonus (loving friends and family <3 <3 <3) + 3 cakes!!!
Note to self:
and the end of the chapter, Paul wrote:
"20 To our God and Father be glory for ever and ever. Amen."
Above all else, when everything is said and done, the ultimate goal, the reason, the purpose, what it is all about... is God! always have, always will...
disclaimer: the "secret" can be applied in any situation you're in :'}
i was planning to post this one exactly on my b'day like i did last year, but i failed to do so since i was so so busy with celebrations :p and practices and work - -"
Before i wrote this post i just peek at my post last year, if you would re-read: "grateful"
This year, God's teaching me a lot about being content and by His grace i would say this year i'm happy :'} Looking back, i know that sometimes God's command seems hard/impossible to do (like forgiveness or being content, etc) but it is really for our own good because the peace that comes after is just so rewarding.
On friday a week before my b'day, ci santi's friend: Pira was speaking about this topic and he used Phil 4. I grew up with the verse : 13 "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." i was a very pessimistic and all-time-worrier kid, i remember my mom would just repeat that verse over and over at the table during breakfast and dinner, before every exam, test, check-up or any major event that freak me out. Yup, in english! So even though i don't purposely plan to memorize it, it gets to me.
So Pira broke down the verse, it's NOT about I CAN, or DO ALL THINGS but it is about THROUGH CHRIST! and it is about the importance of knowing/understand the prior verses, which i never pay attention to - -"
"11 I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the SECRET of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want."
Now when Paul wrote the book of Philippians, he was in prison T.T and yet he showed such great faith! what is his SECRET? the secret is on verse 13 which it THROUGH CHRIST <3
A lot of admirable people i know would start a line by saying: "by God's grace, I..." and now i think i know what that means :) and everyone can say it too and start living it if you know the secret :)
i'm still learning too, and i will probably fall again and again, but i'll try to embrace the secret and knowing that i can do all thing THROUGH CHRIST who strengthens me.
i thank God for such a HAPPY b'day this year :'} along with all the added bonus (loving friends and family <3 <3 <3) + 3 cakes!!!
Note to self:
and the end of the chapter, Paul wrote:
"20 To our God and Father be glory for ever and ever. Amen."
Above all else, when everything is said and done, the ultimate goal, the reason, the purpose, what it is all about... is God! always have, always will...
disclaimer: the "secret" can be applied in any situation you're in :'}
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
the Reason
everything happens for a reason and the reason is to glorify God!
when you are in a bad situation, you might not understand this and you can't see the light at the end of the tunnel because it's blocked by your heartache. But when you are at the end of the tunnel you'll look back and find yourself praising God! for the things that happened.
note to self:
you can choose to curse or to praise, and see how that make a different! not only for yourself but for those around you.
to God be all glory <3
when you are in a bad situation, you might not understand this and you can't see the light at the end of the tunnel because it's blocked by your heartache. But when you are at the end of the tunnel you'll look back and find yourself praising God! for the things that happened.
note to self:
you can choose to curse or to praise, and see how that make a different! not only for yourself but for those around you.
to God be all glory <3
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