I never thought I’d would struggle this much learning about love.
I mean: I thought of myself as “not-looking for trouble” kind of person and mostly kind and friendly and funny and yea :p
But the truth just opened up my eyes and my heart and I really am rebuked by it.
It’s actually a constant struggle for me.
If love is a course, I would probably flunked the test :(
Trust Issue
Yep. Start with that one.
The bible said on John 4:16 “so we know and rely on the love God has for us.”
Knowing is one but trusting is another.
Most of the time, I worry so much that I acted like an unbeliever :(
Worry = not trusting = not loving.
Habitual
Love should be impartial and consistent.
I love people that love me. Friends and family, I even called them my loved-ones. I love babies, there’s so adorable, what’s not to love about them. But what about the rest of the people?
I usually just ignore them before I make things worst. After all isn’t ignorance a bliss?
But ignoring = not loving.
Choice and commitment
It’s not simply attraction, emotion and affection. It’s devotion.
But most of the time I’m like a switch: on and off, on and off, on and off…
And on and off = not loving.
But I’m learning now.
And hopefully I can pass the final exam!
*blushed* :`)
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
New Year!
Gosh! it's 2009... already!!!
I'm not ready :'( i really wish i have a pause button .
I don't know what i'm gonna do this year. I don't have a plan and don't know what to plan.
And i thought by now i must've move on. But i stayed.
Help me God...
Today God reminded me about Abraham and his journey.
Pretty much like me, he was clueless and he had his down-time too.
He worried. He doubted. He failed. But he also rised, repented and faithful.
And God was with him the whole time he failed until the end.
*blushed* :`)
And God had to sent my friend to convince me because He knows i'm a "Thomas"
I got an email today on "Tips how to thrive on 2009":
They key is to focus on—and believe—God's promises.
Focus on God's promises . . . and you will thrive in uncertainty. Take your eyes off of them, and you'll sink like Peter on the water when he took his eyes off Jesus.
Tip #1: Take daily note of God's promises.
You can't live by what you don't know. You can't eat if you don't know where food is. Therefore, you should spend a little time each day of 2009 in God's Word so that He can remind you of who He is and what He will do for you and through you.
Tip #2: Believe God's promises.
"Believe?" In the middle of chaos or pain or worry? I know, easier said than done. But it must be done! When you read God's promises to believers—of provision when you're in need, of peace when trouble is all around you, of power when you're weak—you must dare to believe that He will bring them to pass in your life. And then . . .
Tip #3: Stand on God's promises no matter what.
Here's some advice from someone who's been there. Once you commit to trust in God's promises to you . . . you'll be tested and challenged. And when you stand firm, you'll become stronger than ever—2009 will be a year of spiritual fitness for you.
It's okay to acknowledge that personal challenges seem foreboding. But dare to believe God anyhow! If you do, you'll see how great our God is.
God promises He "will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus" (Phil. 4:19).
WOW! what do you say to that? i'm spechless
*blushed* :`) again.
I'm not ready :'( i really wish i have a pause button .
I don't know what i'm gonna do this year. I don't have a plan and don't know what to plan.
And i thought by now i must've move on. But i stayed.
Help me God...
Today God reminded me about Abraham and his journey.
Pretty much like me, he was clueless and he had his down-time too.
He worried. He doubted. He failed. But he also rised, repented and faithful.
And God was with him the whole time he failed until the end.
*blushed* :`)
And God had to sent my friend to convince me because He knows i'm a "Thomas"
I got an email today on "Tips how to thrive on 2009":
They key is to focus on—and believe—God's promises.
Focus on God's promises . . . and you will thrive in uncertainty. Take your eyes off of them, and you'll sink like Peter on the water when he took his eyes off Jesus.
Tip #1: Take daily note of God's promises.
You can't live by what you don't know. You can't eat if you don't know where food is. Therefore, you should spend a little time each day of 2009 in God's Word so that He can remind you of who He is and what He will do for you and through you.
Tip #2: Believe God's promises.
"Believe?" In the middle of chaos or pain or worry? I know, easier said than done. But it must be done! When you read God's promises to believers—of provision when you're in need, of peace when trouble is all around you, of power when you're weak—you must dare to believe that He will bring them to pass in your life. And then . . .
Tip #3: Stand on God's promises no matter what.
Here's some advice from someone who's been there. Once you commit to trust in God's promises to you . . . you'll be tested and challenged. And when you stand firm, you'll become stronger than ever—2009 will be a year of spiritual fitness for you.
It's okay to acknowledge that personal challenges seem foreboding. But dare to believe God anyhow! If you do, you'll see how great our God is.
God promises He "will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus" (Phil. 4:19).
WOW! what do you say to that? i'm spechless
*blushed* :`) again.
Friday, October 31, 2008
mini vaca-tini
I'm excited...
exept for the delay - -"
I'm going to houston to visit my best friend.
but to tell you the truth i'm more excited for disneyland :p
she's gonna kill me if she knew hahahah :D
thank God for the break :)
<3
exept for the delay - -"
I'm going to houston to visit my best friend.
but to tell you the truth i'm more excited for disneyland :p
she's gonna kill me if she knew hahahah :D
thank God for the break :)
<3
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
NOW & THEN
Another busy week *sigh* I wish I have a pause button for life.
Have you ever think about “the what ifs, the shoulda coulda woulda?”
I do it all the time in my head
I wish for the what ifs
Waiting, anticipating the Disney moment: when dreams come true!
I actually just wanted things that I don’t have… I can’t have; the not yets, the never wills.
As cliché as it is: Things happen for a reason.
The road that I took make me who I am today and Now is definitely better than Then :)
As much as I hate the ride, I can’t say I never enjoyed it.
And no matter how long the ride goes, I know I’m fueled up with love and my destination is worth it!
“You go before me
You shield my way
Your hands uphold me
I know You love me”
*blushed*
Have you ever think about “the what ifs, the shoulda coulda woulda?”
I do it all the time in my head
I wish for the what ifs
Waiting, anticipating the Disney moment: when dreams come true!
I actually just wanted things that I don’t have… I can’t have; the not yets, the never wills.
As cliché as it is: Things happen for a reason.
The road that I took make me who I am today and Now is definitely better than Then :)
As much as I hate the ride, I can’t say I never enjoyed it.
And no matter how long the ride goes, I know I’m fueled up with love and my destination is worth it!
“You go before me
You shield my way
Your hands uphold me
I know You love me”
*blushed*
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
In Denial; Big Time!
I’m addicted to Korean “reality” show: We Got Married <3>
The show actually successfully make me wanna get married :p
I put “reality” on quote because the couples just have that married title on the show, but out of the show they’re “strangers.” But nobody can deny the power of quality time how it actually draws people together.
Attachment. Addiction. It’s dangerous game.
Confession: I was in the game. Attached. Addicted. The whole package.
I talked myself out just to stay in the game. Even when I know it’s just a game. Nothing real, except for my feelings.
It hurts to stay. It hurts to stop playing.
I couldn’t talk to anyone because I was embarrassed and I know how wrong I am, I don’t need anyone telling me that, again.
Back to “We Got Married,” after a while all the couples get a chance to re-evaluate their “marriage.” If one of the party says no then the marriage’s off. There’s this one couple who’s predicted as the most likely a-couple, they decided to call it off. Both of’em. Surprisingly. It was a tear-full episode but it’s for the best.
You see, when things become real, you know you have to get out of the game. Because the game is not real.
God knows. He sees, He listens and He’s there. So He talked me out of it. He got me out of the game.
I need reality as much as I hate it.
I need God to walk me through reality.
And I thank God for friends who tell me what I need to hear not what I want to hear. *blushed*
The show actually successfully make me wanna get married :p
I put “reality” on quote because the couples just have that married title on the show, but out of the show they’re “strangers.” But nobody can deny the power of quality time how it actually draws people together.
Attachment. Addiction. It’s dangerous game.
Confession: I was in the game. Attached. Addicted. The whole package.
I talked myself out just to stay in the game. Even when I know it’s just a game. Nothing real, except for my feelings.
It hurts to stay. It hurts to stop playing.
I couldn’t talk to anyone because I was embarrassed and I know how wrong I am, I don’t need anyone telling me that, again.
Back to “We Got Married,” after a while all the couples get a chance to re-evaluate their “marriage.” If one of the party says no then the marriage’s off. There’s this one couple who’s predicted as the most likely a-couple, they decided to call it off. Both of’em. Surprisingly. It was a tear-full episode but it’s for the best.
You see, when things become real, you know you have to get out of the game. Because the game is not real.
God knows. He sees, He listens and He’s there. So He talked me out of it. He got me out of the game.
I need reality as much as I hate it.
I need God to walk me through reality.
And I thank God for friends who tell me what I need to hear not what I want to hear. *blushed*
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Me, Myself and I
Just wanna share what made me blush this week:
It's monday. While i was driving off work, listening to K-LOVE as usual, Lisa Williams was giving intro to the song "Empty me" by Chris Sligh. This was her words, "How can we be fill with God if we're so full of ourselves?"
s I n, p r I d e, I...
Chorus:
"Empty me of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition and the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds to
Lord empty me of me so i can be Filled with you"
It's monday. While i was driving off work, listening to K-LOVE as usual, Lisa Williams was giving intro to the song "Empty me" by Chris Sligh. This was her words, "How can we be fill with God if we're so full of ourselves?"
s I n, p r I d e, I...
Chorus:
"Empty me of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition and the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds to
Lord empty me of me so i can be Filled with you"
me + GOD = *blushed*
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Pilot
"If apostle Paul is still alive right now, he probably be bloggin."
so i thought i blog :)
about Him who never fail to make me *blush*
so i thought i blog :)
about Him who never fail to make me *blush*
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