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Thursday, January 29, 2009

Learning to love, actually

I never thought I’d would struggle this much learning about love.
I mean: I thought of myself as “not-looking for trouble” kind of person and mostly kind and friendly and funny and yea :p
But the truth just opened up my eyes and my heart and I really am rebuked by it.
It’s actually a constant struggle for me.
If love is a course, I would probably flunked the test :(

Trust Issue

Yep. Start with that one.
The bible said on John 4:16 “so we know and rely on the love God has for us.”
Knowing is one but trusting is another.
Most of the time, I worry so much that I acted like an unbeliever :(
Worry = not trusting = not loving.

Habitual

Love should be impartial and consistent.
I love people that love me. Friends and family, I even called them my loved-ones. I love babies, there’s so adorable, what’s not to love about them. But what about the rest of the people?
I usually just ignore them before I make things worst. After all isn’t ignorance a bliss?
But ignoring = not loving.

Choice and commitment

It’s not simply attraction, emotion and affection. It’s devotion.
But most of the time I’m like a switch: on and off, on and off, on and off…
And on and off = not loving.

But I’m learning now.
And hopefully I can pass the final exam!
*blushed* :`)

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

New Year!

Gosh! it's 2009... already!!!
I'm not ready :'( i really wish i have a pause button .
I don't know what i'm gonna do this year. I don't have a plan and don't know what to plan.
And i thought by now i must've move on. But i stayed.
Help me God...

Today God reminded me about Abraham and his journey.
Pretty much like me, he was clueless and he had his down-time too.
He worried. He doubted. He failed. But he also rised, repented and faithful.
And God was with him the whole time he failed until the end.
*blushed* :`)

And God had to sent my friend to convince me because He knows i'm a "Thomas"
I got an email today on "Tips how to thrive on 2009":
They key is to focus on—and believe—God's promises.
Focus on God's promises . . . and you will thrive in uncertainty. Take your eyes off of them, and you'll sink like Peter on the water when he took his eyes off Jesus.

Tip #1: Take daily note of God's promises.
You can't live by what you don't know. You can't eat if you don't know where food is. Therefore, you should spend a little time each day of 2009 in God's Word so that He can remind you of who He is and what He will do for you and through you.

Tip #2: Believe God's promises.
"Believe?" In the middle of chaos or pain or worry? I know, easier said than done. But it must be done! When you read God's promises to believers—of provision when you're in need, of peace when trouble is all around you, of power when you're weak—you must dare to believe that He will bring them to pass in your life. And then . . .

Tip #3: Stand on God's promises no matter what.
Here's some advice from someone who's been there. Once you commit to trust in God's promises to you . . . you'll be tested and challenged. And when you stand firm, you'll become stronger than ever—2009 will be a year of spiritual fitness for you.
It's okay to acknowledge that personal challenges seem foreboding. But dare to believe God anyhow! If you do, you'll see how great our God is.

God promises He "will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus" (Phil. 4:19).
WOW! what do you say to that? i'm spechless
*blushed* :`) again.