He knows

So this weekend i'm going to Belitung for my cousin's wedding.
Not that i don't love family gathering but it can be a little intimidating.

The million dollar question will be asked by all my elders: When is your turn?  (i'm sure it's not their intention to be hurtful but sometimes, with the way the ask or given the situation)

I've been praying for this whole week for God to protect me from those questions and to protect others with my answer (you know what i mean). Then as i opened my facebook a couple days ago, i came across this very encouraging sharing from lysa terkeurst:

Love can empower me to feel hurt without becoming a person consumed by that hurt…

I can feel offended but I don’t have to be offended.

I can feel insecure but I don’t have to act insecure.

I can feel angry but I don’t have to respond angry.

That’s the choice love makes.

He knows my name

I have a Maker
He Formed My Heart
before even time began
my life was in his hands

chorus
He knows my name
he knows my every thought
he sees each tear that falls
and hears me when I call

I have a father
he calls me his own
he'll never leave me
no matter where I go

Happy early fathers day to all fathers!!!

Experiencing God

Last Saturday i went with my parents to church for a KPI (Kebaktian Penyegaran Iman); part of the Pentecost program at church. We were there around 5 minutes to 7pm. The service was scheduled to start at 7pm, as we approach the gate we notice that people are gathering in the front, turns out the speaker was not there yet and they were unable to get in contact with her as well and it is about time they need to start the service.

Truthfully i went there with a skeptical and underestimate attitude. As during the weeknight i went there with my parents for a prayer meeting also a part of the Pentecost series program and i wasn’t refreshed and find that praying at home was even better.

But as i enter the church and sat, it get me thinking how many are there who is like me with this over arrogant mind, and how many are there who actually came need to be refreshed and the fact that the speaker might or might not show up tonight. And so i prayed. I prayed for God to meet us in whatever state that we’re in, whether the over arrogant attitude self or the desperate in need self.

And as we’re praising God, the speaker actually came one song away from the sermon. She was finally there! Praise God! And what she shared that night was very simple but it got to me and i believe others too. I will leave you too with a simple question to ponder from that night.

People who are rich are happy! True or false. It is half true. If they can enjoy it. There are rich people who can’t enjoy what they have.

You said you have God in your life, but are you enjoying Him? It hit me right there. (in Indonesian: Kamu berkata kamu punya Tuhan dalam hidupmu, tetapi apakah kamu menikmati Dia?)

Hanya dekat Allah saja (Psalm 62)

Hanya dekat Allah saja

Kiranya aku tenang

Sebab daripadaNyalah ke'slamatanku

Hanya Dia gunung batuku, ke'slamatanku

Kota bentengku 

Aku takkan goyah

Pada Allah ada kes'lamatan dan kemulianku

Gunung batu kekuatanku

Tempat perlindunganku

Percayalah kepadaNya

Setiap waktu hai, umat

Curahkanlah isi hatimu dihadapanNya

Allah tempat perlindungan kita