Whoa! it's the end of august already - -"
so fast... as usual, i'm not ready :(
for things that has happened or yet to happen, i'm never ready... why na...? :(
update (warning: it's a long one :p):
1. my parent're here :)
Thank God for His protection for my family :)
we sorta had our lil' talk and i'm still sensing their disagreement esp. my mom's and it just made me really sad and frustrated. Still no news from the lawyer :( has made it harder for me to plan my next step. Help me God... what dissapoints me is that She always has the talk about God' will and "Berkat Tuhanlah yang menjadikan kaya, susah payah tidak menambahinya." Amsal 10 : 22 If so then what's the matter with going back in indo. I know, I know that it breaks her heart because i didn't leave up to her expection and i feel bad for being rebellious :( because most of my friends, they did what their parents want them to do. I just want to be understood, is it too much to aks? Plus my dad said that He doesn't know how much time he have left, I know, i know life is in God's hand but as much as i can i wanna spend my time with him. I just, I can't do this myself :'( Help me God... as much as i'm angry i love them, i really do. Otherwise i won't be this frustrated...
2. my dear cousin was married last saturday, glad to hear that he's happy.
with all of the things that happened between us, i feel that he's like a brother i have never had. because we argue, a lot! :D we had our fights, but we care deep down about each other. I'm gonna miss him... :(
3. one of my uncle in indo got diagnose with cancer, it makes me really sad :(
He's a believer and his kids all grown-up with family of their own, but still i can't imagine how sad/hard the news is for them... even for me :'( the doctor had suggested to do an operation, but he doesn't wanna do it, because the sensei(chinese doctor) he's been seeing said that the cancer going to spread with the operation.
[Please pray together with me :) for him]
4. so we're watching Laskar Pelangi last night, it's kinda like Indo's version of slumdog millionaire :p my mom and dad is from Belitung Island in indo and apparently the movie was about Belitung-kid, they filmed everything there :) a little promotion, i always thought that Belitung is better than Bali :) it's undiscovered before :) therefore undeveloped :( unlike bali. My parents said that because of the movie a lot of tourists actually go to belitung now. here's sneak preview of how beautiful belitung is, you can browse different pictures. It's a really good movie :) it's about the importance/hardship of education. This poor kid (who's the main character) is a successful man today, and this story is about him and his classmates and his dedicated teacher. This movie was a success in Indo and they dedicated some of the profit to further education in the poor-school.
5. my bff and his fiancee were here over the weekend. Man! i miss having her around :) her bubbly-ness just bubbling everyone :) i miss her already, but thank God in 2 weeks, I'll have another visits :) she's an amazing baker/person! kekekekeke, she was here for the wedding and during the ceremony i shed a single tear so she said to me: "don't cry more than me on my wedding!" hahahah, i think i will dude! :p
Phew... sorry if it's too long :)
I just want to end today's update with the song that we sang yesterday at church, it really gives me strength:
I know who holds tomorrow
Monday, August 31, 2009
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Great is Thy faithfullness
so last sunday we're talking about how waiting and wondering can be.
it is exactly how i feel right now.
Clueless - -"
Things aren't going like how i wanted to be - -"
However this verse stuck in my head and i wanted to share it with you guys:
Genesis 15
God's Covenant With Abram
1 After this, the word of the LORD came to Abram in a vision:
"Do not be afraid, Abram.
I am your shield, [a]
your very great reward. [b] "
I feel like God is trying to tell me the same thing:
After this, the word of the LORD came to Nana through sunday sermon:
"Do not be afraid, na.
I am your shield,
your very great reward. "
2 Timothy 2:13 (New International Version)
13if we are faithless,
he will remain faithful,
for he cannot disown himself.
*blushed*
Thank God for an awesome God!
it is exactly how i feel right now.
Clueless - -"
Things aren't going like how i wanted to be - -"
However this verse stuck in my head and i wanted to share it with you guys:
Genesis 15
God's Covenant With Abram
1 After this, the word of the LORD came to Abram in a vision:
"Do not be afraid, Abram.
I am your shield, [a]
your very great reward. [b] "
I feel like God is trying to tell me the same thing:
After this, the word of the LORD came to Nana through sunday sermon:
"Do not be afraid, na.
I am your shield,
your very great reward. "
2 Timothy 2:13 (New International Version)
13if we are faithless,
he will remain faithful,
for he cannot disown himself.
*blushed*
Thank God for an awesome God!
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
the GOAL
Today when i open biblegateway the TODAY VERSE is:
“I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.”- Philippians 3:14
Gosh! It made me realize: that I've lost track. I got distracted by my situation and drowned in the confusion. I said to the God that the only thing out of my life is to make Him proud of me. That one day He can say to me: "Well done, good and faithful servant!"
Instead of looking at my goal I've been looking at my surrounding.
God, if I may, I need one more confirmation...
Please pray for me
Please pray with me :)
“I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.”- Philippians 3:14
Gosh! It made me realize: that I've lost track. I got distracted by my situation and drowned in the confusion. I said to the God that the only thing out of my life is to make Him proud of me. That one day He can say to me: "Well done, good and faithful servant!"
Instead of looking at my goal I've been looking at my surrounding.
God, if I may, I need one more confirmation...
Please pray for me
Please pray with me :)
Friday, July 17, 2009
may God be seen
Week of July 17
My Struggles are About Him
by Max Lucado
What about your struggles? Is there any chance, any possibility, that you have been selected to struggle for God's glory? Have you "been granted for Christ's sake, not only to believe in Him, but also to suffer for His sake" (Philippians 1:29)?
Here is a clue. Do your prayers seem to be unanswered? What you request and what you receive aren't matching up? Don't think God is not listening. Indeed he is. He may have higher plans.
Here is another. Are people strengthened by your struggles? A friend of mine can answer yes. His cancer was consuming more than his body; it was eating away at his faith. Unanswered petitions perplexed him. Well-meaning Christians confused him. "If you have faith," they said, "you will be healed."
No healing came. Just more chemo, nausea, and questions. He assumed the fault was a small faith. I suggested another answer. "It's not about you," I told him. "Your hospital room is a showcase for your Maker. Your faith in the face of suffering cranks up the volume of God's song."
Oh, that you could have seen the relief on his face. To know that he hadn't failed God and God hadn't failed him--this made all the difference. Seeing his sickness in the scope of God's sovereign plan gave his condition a sense of dignity. He accepted his cancer as an assignment from heaven: a missionary to the cancer ward.
A week later I saw him again. "I reflected God," he said, smiling through a thin face, "to the nurse, the doctors, my friends. Who knows who needed to see God, but I did my best to make him seen."
Bingo. His cancer paraded the power of Jesus down the Main Street of his world.
God will use whatever he wants to display his glory. Heavens and stars. History and nations. People and problems.
Rather than begrudge your problem, explore it. Ponder it. And most of all, use it. Use it to the glory of God.
Through your problems and mine, may God be seen.
AMEN! *blushed*
My update:
I decided to talk with the HR anyways after contemplating for quite some times, so we'll see what happens...
So sad to hear and see all the news today is about bombing that happened yesterday at Jakarta. Thank God really for my dad's visa. It's like right on time, He got before all this happened. Must be harder to get it now.
When talking with my parents yesterday, I sense they still want me to be here. I was again of course upset especially with my mom, because why wouldn't they just support my decision and said: Yes, i know it's gonna be hard but we're going to go through it together. And besides, to my defense: God's protection is not limited to people staying in the United States!!! *arrrghhh* I'm so emotional. And other thing: do you think i'll be fine and happy having the "security" here but knowing that my mom and dad are not.
:( *confused*
My Struggles are About Him
by Max Lucado
What about your struggles? Is there any chance, any possibility, that you have been selected to struggle for God's glory? Have you "been granted for Christ's sake, not only to believe in Him, but also to suffer for His sake" (Philippians 1:29)?
Here is a clue. Do your prayers seem to be unanswered? What you request and what you receive aren't matching up? Don't think God is not listening. Indeed he is. He may have higher plans.
Here is another. Are people strengthened by your struggles? A friend of mine can answer yes. His cancer was consuming more than his body; it was eating away at his faith. Unanswered petitions perplexed him. Well-meaning Christians confused him. "If you have faith," they said, "you will be healed."
No healing came. Just more chemo, nausea, and questions. He assumed the fault was a small faith. I suggested another answer. "It's not about you," I told him. "Your hospital room is a showcase for your Maker. Your faith in the face of suffering cranks up the volume of God's song."
Oh, that you could have seen the relief on his face. To know that he hadn't failed God and God hadn't failed him--this made all the difference. Seeing his sickness in the scope of God's sovereign plan gave his condition a sense of dignity. He accepted his cancer as an assignment from heaven: a missionary to the cancer ward.
A week later I saw him again. "I reflected God," he said, smiling through a thin face, "to the nurse, the doctors, my friends. Who knows who needed to see God, but I did my best to make him seen."
Bingo. His cancer paraded the power of Jesus down the Main Street of his world.
God will use whatever he wants to display his glory. Heavens and stars. History and nations. People and problems.
Rather than begrudge your problem, explore it. Ponder it. And most of all, use it. Use it to the glory of God.
Through your problems and mine, may God be seen.
AMEN! *blushed*
My update:
I decided to talk with the HR anyways after contemplating for quite some times, so we'll see what happens...
So sad to hear and see all the news today is about bombing that happened yesterday at Jakarta. Thank God really for my dad's visa. It's like right on time, He got before all this happened. Must be harder to get it now.
When talking with my parents yesterday, I sense they still want me to be here. I was again of course upset especially with my mom, because why wouldn't they just support my decision and said: Yes, i know it's gonna be hard but we're going to go through it together. And besides, to my defense: God's protection is not limited to people staying in the United States!!! *arrrghhh* I'm so emotional. And other thing: do you think i'll be fine and happy having the "security" here but knowing that my mom and dad are not.
:( *confused*
Thursday, July 9, 2009
He calls my name :)
I'm sooo happy that i got to record baby maxie saying nanananana :D
I listen to it over and over and over again and it makes me happy!
So during one of my quiet time, i came to realize God must've been feel same way. How he longed for all of us to call His name :)
Just my two cents, for those of you who feel or are drifted away from God, He's waiting for You to call His name :)
and God's name is certainly not like my name, I can't do anything. But His name is powerful!
My dad is going to apply us visa today in indo, im quite nervous.
I know He is too :)
so i prayed to God for calmless and peacefulness for all of us, knowing & trusting it in God's hands, whatever happens God knows best -> it's really hard to say that :( But He indeed knows best. I can't argue nor deny it.
YOUR NAME - Paul Baloche
Jesus, in Your Name we pray
Come and fill our hearts today
Lord, give us strength to live for You and glorify Your Name
CHORUS
Your Name is a strong and mighty tower
Your Name is a shelter like no other
Your Name, let the nations sing it louder
'Cause nothing has the power to save but Your Name
AMEN! *blushed*
I listen to it over and over and over again and it makes me happy!
So during one of my quiet time, i came to realize God must've been feel same way. How he longed for all of us to call His name :)
Just my two cents, for those of you who feel or are drifted away from God, He's waiting for You to call His name :)
and God's name is certainly not like my name, I can't do anything. But His name is powerful!
My dad is going to apply us visa today in indo, im quite nervous.
I know He is too :)
so i prayed to God for calmless and peacefulness for all of us, knowing & trusting it in God's hands, whatever happens God knows best -> it's really hard to say that :( But He indeed knows best. I can't argue nor deny it.
YOUR NAME - Paul Baloche
Jesus, in Your Name we pray
Come and fill our hearts today
Lord, give us strength to live for You and glorify Your Name
CHORUS
Your Name is a strong and mighty tower
Your Name is a shelter like no other
Your Name, let the nations sing it louder
'Cause nothing has the power to save but Your Name
AMEN! *blushed*
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
the Not so Secret ;)
Starbucks:
Cap'n Crunch (Not on the menu) but it is requestable :)
It tastes exactly like the cereal
It is actually Strawberry's cream frappuccino with toffee nut & java chip
Jamba juice:
White gummy (as in gummy bear); also red gummy
Pink Starburst
Amazingly tastes exactly like it :p
Gchat non-listed emoticons:
>.< = WINCE
+/'\ = COWBELL
}:-) = DEVIL
V.v.V = CRAB
:() = MONKEY
:(:) = PIG
< / 3 = BROKEN HEART
:-x or :* = KISS
: { = MOUSTACHE
:'( = CRYING
[:] = ROBOT
~@~ = POO
ENJOY :)
Cap'n Crunch (Not on the menu) but it is requestable :)
It tastes exactly like the cereal
It is actually Strawberry's cream frappuccino with toffee nut & java chip
Jamba juice:
White gummy (as in gummy bear); also red gummy
Pink Starburst
Amazingly tastes exactly like it :p
Gchat non-listed emoticons:
>.< = WINCE
+/'\ = COWBELL
}:-) = DEVIL
V.v.V = CRAB
:() = MONKEY
:(:) = PIG
< / 3 = BROKEN HEART
:-x or :* = KISS
: { = MOUSTACHE
:'( = CRYING
[:] = ROBOT
~@~ = POO
ENJOY :)
Friday, June 19, 2009
God is cheering for you!!!
By Max Lucado
If your God is Mighty enough to ignite the sun, could it be that He is mighty enough to light your path?
God is for you. Not "may be," not "has been," not "was," not "would be," but "God is!" He is for you. Today. At this hour. At this minute. As you read this sentence. No need to wait in line or come back tomorrow. He is with you. He could not be closer than he is at this second. His loyalty won't increase if you are better nor lessen if you are worse. He is for you.
God is for you. Turn to the sidelines; that's God cheering your run.
Look past the finish line; that's God applauding your steps. Listen for him in the bleachers, shouting your name. Too tired to continue? He'll carry you. Too discouraged to fight? He's picking you up. God is for you.
God is for you. Had he a calendar, your birthday would be circled. If he drove a car, your name would be on his bumper. If there's a tree in heaven, he's carved your name in the bark. We know he has a tattoo, and we know what it says. "I have written your name on my hand," he declares (Isa. 49:16).
If your God is Mighty enough to ignite the sun, could it be that He is mighty enough to light your path?
God is for you. Not "may be," not "has been," not "was," not "would be," but "God is!" He is for you. Today. At this hour. At this minute. As you read this sentence. No need to wait in line or come back tomorrow. He is with you. He could not be closer than he is at this second. His loyalty won't increase if you are better nor lessen if you are worse. He is for you.
God is for you. Turn to the sidelines; that's God cheering your run.
Look past the finish line; that's God applauding your steps. Listen for him in the bleachers, shouting your name. Too tired to continue? He'll carry you. Too discouraged to fight? He's picking you up. God is for you.
God is for you. Had he a calendar, your birthday would be circled. If he drove a car, your name would be on his bumper. If there's a tree in heaven, he's carved your name in the bark. We know he has a tattoo, and we know what it says. "I have written your name on my hand," he declares (Isa. 49:16).
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