Don't worry, be happy

*Gasp!* is the end of september
that means i HAVE TO wake up - -"
as usual i'm never ready - -"

anyway,
We're just starting to use the One month to live book on one of my bible study
On the 1st chapter we're doing self assesment-sort of :o)
1st part for people to review on you and the 2nd one is for you to review yourself.

I'm kinda dissapointed on myself on the people review. It seems like i haven't really been doing things that really matter T.T and i didn't get my priority right.

At the end of the assesment, they asked us to put 5 things we wanna do if we only have 1 month to live and we have to start doing 1 of those things this week :) so one of my commitment is "I choose to be happier" :']

It's been a while since i feel happy :(
Things are not going my way :( and maybe they never will :(
It's really hard to accept things you don't like and to let go things you do like :(
(notice on the number of :( T.T and - -" -> you'll know that i'm not happy)
So the application is: for me to journal on the things that i should be thankful for instead of looking at the negatives and start complaining like i always do :(

so here it it is:

Sept 17'09 - I thank God for my bible study: for the reminder, encouragement and accountability :)
Sept 18'09 - I thank God because He never give up on me, I thank God for a treasured-friendship :) <3 yossi and ci en2
Sept 19'09 - I thank God for Houston trip and being able to enjoy good food. I thank God for puting a smile on my face :) throughout the trip!
Sept 20'09 - I thank God for CALIFORNIA's weather, it's trully the best :p
Sept 21'09 - I thank God for the power and strength You've given so I can survive the monday at work :p
Sept 22'09 - I thank God for showering me enough love and grace to deal with unpleasant situation/ difficult people :p
Sept 23'09 - I thank God for God's protection and presence unto Pho2's life. She is 83 years old today :)
Sept 24'09 - I thank God for giving me enough energy to move and to stay WAY pass my bed time :p
Sept 25'09 - I thank God that I can spent time with ci en2 today despite all the moving-hectic :)
Sept 26'09 - I thank God :) for ci jenny :) + nahing + ci en2. I thank God for the wonderful and the super majestic view, You are trully an awesome awesome God! (i'll post the pictures of our trip one of these days :)) *tears of joy*
Sept 27'09 - I thank God for Your presence in my life :) i'm really sad with the goodbye, really tired with the moving and nearly breakdown after miso's cage :( but I thank God for holding me up in all situations :)
Sept 28'09 - I thank God for You always watch over me :) through little things, You show that you care. 1 Peter 5:7 :) Thank God for the shopping cart :p
Sept 29'09 - I thank God for my lil' chat with Fonda, we both agree that we need to do more praying :) and also thank God for the time we can spend time with Irene before she went back to indo
Sept 30'09 - Thank God that today is pay-day :p :) Thank you for providing my needs.

Notice the number of :)?
*blushed*