Humbled

So... on Tuesday night i went home late, like passed midnight after i had dinner with ci jenny and dela. After dropping dela off, i went straight to my apartment. And of course: NO PARKING :( so i thought i would just park at the disabled parking spot in front of the leasing office (i parked there a lot of times before and it was fine, besides i'm going to move it before office hours-8am anyway). So i went to bed right after because clearly it's passed my bed time - -"

But what happened?!?!?! I'm sure it's no surprise to you guys that my car got towed :( Yup! my 1st experience :( I was so angry and sad at the same time. I called the towing company and of course try to justify myself and by doing so it's just make more angry and upset at what happened. But bottom line: I'm still at the wrong. I know that. But it's just so hard to admit that you're wrong.

So Yeye drop me off the next morning to pick up my car and i had to pay the penalty :( it was so expensive and surely i've learned my lesson T.T

I remembered ci santi shared on ES that she got pulled over by the police and how she realize about how there's authority above her. And this experience is indeed humbling for me. A lot of times i have taken God for granted because He is so gracious in showering me with mercy and grace, unlimited & unconditional that a lot of times when i hurt His heart(intentionally/unintentionally) I didn't feel bad. There's no immediate punishment nor sense of urgency -> that's what i think. But this lesson has opened my eyes to see how much of a sinner i am :(

It reminded me of what Christopher Yuan said on WCC 2008: You gotta live with the sense of urgency!

I don't wanna have a terminal illness to be able to live my life for Jesus. I don't wanna be hit hard and fell hard to have to give my life to Jesus. To all of you that read my blog, please held me accountable.

"I'm sorry Lord for the thing I've made it
When it's all about You
It's all about You Jesus"

*blushed*