miracle

another long overdue post :p
november had gone by so fast - -" it was a busy2 month for me, with 1st time in charge on my friend's wedding decoration and then retreat and of course the ongoing ES drama practices.

and whuuzzzz: we're on DECEMBER now!
so, what happen in december?
last weekend, my cousin's grandpa(i call him kung2) got admitted to the hospital for having a mild stroke! it's such a heartbreaking news, he was known as a healthy person! and over the past 80 years of his life this is the 1st time he got admitted to the hospital. It was a tough weekend for the family, but praise God, they got him in there on time and there's no permanent damage. When i visited him, he looks normal and alert :D And according to the doctor he has no blockage yet however there's a narrowing artery that might cause the blockage in the future. So currently they giving him medication to thin his blood, no operation needed at this point. phew! Praise God!

So as i was waiting in the hospital, there's this uncle(my uncle's friend, his name is uncle henry) who also visited kung2. He had hit by stroke too before. and you can see that it had hit him pretty bad, he's limping. it was too late when he got in to the hospital before that the doctor couldn't just give him a thinning-blood medicine.

Anyhow, all these happens it got me thinking what had happened to my dad before. He was hit by stroke too before. and he was a lot worse than kung2. he had to stayed at ICU, he had trouble speaking, walking, moving parts of his body that he has to go through therapy. That time i would think he would ended up like uncle henry. I remember crying and praying, and praying and crying... among all the possible permanent damages i can handle the physical but please let my dad remembers me still. Because that how bad he was, and nerve damage could impact brain(memories, intelligence, etc) and physical abilities.

But by God's grace, my dad recover looking normal as ever! Praise God! not only the brain but also physically. At the time i was ready to cope with whatever situation that might happen, the worst. People say that me and my mom have to be extra patient with my dad because he might get angry at the situation, therefore more emotional, etc etc. But again by God's grace my dad is more patient after all these things happened. And that time my aunty keep telling to uncle henry about my dad's case and how it such a miracle! that if you see him today, you wouldn't have guess that he had stroke before.

All i can say now is WOW! God had made me speechless. I was in my devotion last week and it was about Moses, when God had called him to go to bring Israel out of Egypt and there he goes with all excuses he can think off, and then God perform miracle for him(the stick turned into snake) and i was thinking on my head: "God, ok if you do that for me right in this century it would be easy for me to go or to say yes! to whatever you want me to do (like: spreading the gospel)" because you know, it would be easier for people to believe You. and then the incident happen in the weekend...

God: don't you say i didn't give you any miracle! :D
me: *speechless* in awe...

so, what i am trying to say is: He does still give you miracles. might be not in the form that you wanted and you might not understand it when it happened. And that sometimes what blocking us from miracles is our unbelief.

i hope you are all blessed by this testimony and in the end you can say: yes, God's great!

*blushed*