Audited

So yea, my auditor is going to come today to audit our month-end stuffs...
i hope i do good. i hate it when when i think that i've prepared , but yet sometimes there's another hole that i'm un-aware of :[

So the same thing goes with my life :[
i thank God for using my bible studies to help audit me :]
and the result is: i didn't do so well... i have holes all over :/
i'm quite dissapointed with my true answer... because i KNOW what i believe, what i suppose to believe, but i'm not living it, which is also mean i don't really believe :[

choices to be or not to be a woman of God. what do you believe about God, is He good or is He not? choose child. That question is kinda like the theme on the book and for some reason keep ringing and bugging me after our BS session on tuesday. and i know probably that is because i'm dissapointed at myself. i know what i'm suppose to do, but i'm not doing it. i'm really sorry Lord... thank you for being so patient with me.

Life's been hard :[ and i have always been amazed at people who's worshiping God with full-passion still; despite of, inspite of. Always wanna be one. So maybe now God's giving me a chance... for me to choose, say and act.

"I believe that God is good."

I have known the Father's care for me
He's been good.. He's been good
Through it all He's always there for me
God's been (so) good to me

Through the storm.. Through the night
Come what may everything will be alright
I have known the Father's care for me
God's been good to me


*blushed*